Sunday, April 22, 2007
Our Day...
We also liked the fact that people welcomed us openly. We went to another church in the past where noone even made us feel welcome. We went there for 6 weeks and not a single welcoming word to us. But, I think they were only interested in herding people in like cattle. They don't care about people as individuals.
Then, we had lunch and took a drive. The drive was amazing - Mike and I were able to have a great talk. We haven't been able to do that in ages! We really communicated and really listened to each other. He can sometimes be very non-communicative with me and so when he does open up and spill everything out it's very momentous!
We took London to the park and came home. Nothing major, but very nice just the same. That's all for now....
Friday, April 20, 2007
So Much Fun......Not!
We took London with us to the dentist and he just sat with Dad while he was having his teeth cleaned. They gave London a tooth brush for sitting and coloring so quietly. I'm just glad that's over until next year's visit. We went to a new dentist here in town and he seems to be pretty good. We were happy with his work.
I do have a pet peeve though......I've always had horrible teeth, ever since I was little. I credit that mostly to my mother who smoked and took drugs during her pregnancy. If she had taken care of herself (and me) better during pregnancy I would probably have better teeth to this day. When I was pregnant with London, I faithfully took my prenatal vitamins and ate what I was supposed to just so I would have a healthy baby. London has awesome teeth now too. My peeve is this.....when you're a parent or about to become one, you don't just have your selfish self to think about. You have to think about how your actions/habits affect someone else. I know... shocking, isn't it? So, instead of taking that puff on a cigarette, or swig of beer - think of how that affects your child, wife, life, etc......I think we'd have amazing people/kids running around in this world if their parents stopped being selfish and actually thought of someone besides themselves for a change.
Mike and I have always made sure that we had health insurance too. That's a huge part of staying healthy and keeping up on routine check-ups for teeth, etc....
I had regular dental care when I was little, but I think the damage starts when you're in the womb. That's my personal opinion, but it's what I think.
I think the only point I'm making is that I think people should just be more aware of the things they do that affect the entire family. The selfish habits of drinking, drugs, smoking, etc......they don't just affect the person engaging in these activities. These activities affect everyone, especially children. I'm living proof of that. All I can do is make sure that my child has a stable home free of alcoholism, smoking, and drugs. And, I can make sure he has adequate healthcare so he's not having a problem with his teeth or anything else in his mid-30's. It's just part of being responsible parents - it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure this out. I don't really care what people think of me and of what I write on my blog. I'm not on this earth to win friends - I'm here to raise my child and be a good wife to my husband. I don't lay awake at night wondering if this person or that person like me or not. Who cares? All I know is that my husband and I had an agreement before we got married that if he ever turned into an alcoholic or drug addict or whatever...the marriage was over. I won't tolerate it. It's bad enough I had to tolerate an alcoholic parent in my childhood - as an adult, I will not be subjected to that ever again. Now, don't get me wrong....My husband has an alcoholic beverage if we go to Olive Garden or something. But, we don't keep alcohol in the house. Partly because I have a very addictive personality and I don't need or want the temptation. I want London to have as normal of a childhood as possible - I don't want him saying his parents were just a couple of drunks.
Mike's snoozing away since he worked the graveyard shift last night....but, I'm supposed to wake him up so we can go do something fun while it's nice and sunny.
I've got to type up all of my poems this weekend to get them ready for my editor, and finish our friends' curtains. Plus, whatever else I can rummage up to get done.
I think we'll go swimming too. That's what we did both days last weekend. London loves it and so do we. It also fits into our exercise regiment for our workouts on Wednesdays while London is at school. I'm thinking of joining a yoga class too - that just sounds fun and somewhat low-impact. It fits into my work schedule too.
Til next time....
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
What A Day...
On to more excitement....I've finally come up with the title to my 2nd book and I'm just finishing up the tale end of it before it gets sent off to my editor. I am so excited - and proud of myself. Maybe, just maybe....I will be the type of parent that London will be proud to call me his Mom!
We're enrolling him in Bitty Ball in June - it's like T-Ball but for younger kids. Then, in September he gets to do soccer. We're excited to get him up and running and involved in things. I always wanted to do sports or something but the excuse was always no money....I'll work 2 jobs if need-be just to make sure he has a great childhood.
Ta-Ta for now......my honey, my pizza, my baby, and my movie are all waiting on me........!
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Injured Love...
Was that always your intention, or is that feeling really true?
Am I really so horrible, and a failure as mom and wife?
Do you really have room for me in your busy life?
Late at night I wonder if we've mistakenly taken our vows.
For the feelings of love my heart does not arouse.
We have no time for each other anymore.
And, on this marriage we've apparently closed the door.
We masquerade to our friends and family that everything is fine.
But really, when no one is looking, our marriage is on the line.
Neglect and harsh words have injured our love.
Something we may get over, or never recover from.
Tiffany Sue Roberts, April 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Easter
We went to my Aunt's house (on my mom's side) for Easter dinner this year. After dinner, we hid eggs for all of the kids and then watched them find them all. London had a blast, especially since he found one of the "special" eggs that had a dollar bill inside of it. He said it was more "moneys" for his piggy bank! We played games in the yard and had a blast. We played games that we played when all of us cousins were little. It was great. London had a great time playing with all of his cousins, which I was able to get all of the cousins together for a group photo.
After that we went to my Uncle's house (on my Dad's side) for dessert and to play croquet. London played on the tire swing and played tetherball. He was so worn out by the end of the day!
By the way......I know Easter isn't about bunnies, eggs and candy......I'm not an idiot - I realize the true meaning of Easter. But, this was still fun!
Future
He is what keeps me going, and continually forgiving.
Sometimes I feel so inadequate in my role as mom and wife.
And, sometimes I can understand why someone would take their own life.
I truly don't understand how my life went from that to this.
Why couldn't we have held onto our feelings of wedded bliss?
Neglect, harsh words and taking advantage of each other are unfortunately now the norm.
Because of this our hearts are growing colder, instead of growing warm.
We have some major changes that need to be made.
If our marriage is ever going to be able to make the grade.
Tiffany Sue Roberts, April 2007